Dilemma

By: Maral Maljian

Sitting, waiting, as precious time goes by.
The question is should I or shouldn't I...?
My heart wants to hold you, and never let you go-
But it's not proper, at least my mind tells me so.
You won't be here forever by my side.
I must go away soon, so I should no longer hide.

It's amazing how much power is in the touch of our fingers-
And the thought of it in my mind constantly lingers.
What is it that holds me back from your fulfilling tender touch?
This dilemma is a mystery to me, for I need you so much.
Is this need I have in you something wrong?
For this feeling won't leave, its just too strong.

I wish I had more courage, instead of control and pride.
Only then could I hold you and no longer hide.

History of Poem: I wrote this poem in High School around my Junior year. It was published for the first time in the anthology Tomorrow Never Knows (Library of Congress ISBN 1-56167-267-X) because it was included into the semi-final round of the 1994 North American open Poetry competition. This competition was sponsered by the National Library of Poetry. It was published a second time in the anthology Mists of Enchantment (Library of Congress ISBN 1-57553-000-7) in 1995. The poem was recited on to an audio tape by a world renown speaker along with 9 other poems.

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